Mom reflections

Excerpt from Michelle's journal from the day we flew to New York:

"You know that sick feeling you can’t really shake when you haven’t had enough sleep and you know you’ve got a long day ahead of you? Yeah, that happens a lot around here lately but that’s how the day we flew to New York began.  We woke up at 4:30 with the intention of leaving the guest house we're residing in at 5:00 to catch a 7:00AM flight.  Flight was delayed 45 minutes and the kids are already running on empty.  We permanently moved out of our house yesterday and everything feels disheveled at this point. When I focus on wearing my “Mom hat,” I sometimes wonder if we are putting our children through “too much.”  Too much change, too much instability, too much emotional stress at such a young age.  I try to rest in the fact that Adam and my calling is also our children’s calling.  The Lord is equipping us (and them) for every good work.  The Lord is not surprised by what we are going through as a family and He will not be surprised by what we experience on the field.  He ordained it.  Regardless of solid theological thought, my heart sometimes wanders from that and I question what we are doing.  This is one of those days.  There’s really no true clarity of thought. Just an ill feeling in my gut."

Excerpt from Michelle's journal the first day of training:

"His mercies are new every morning!  Great start of the day and good subway ride.  The boys had seamless drop-offs.  Everyone is happy.  It’s moments like these where we can look back on the last 10 months as an Ebenezer.  We’ll remember the Lord’s providence and sovereignty in getting us to the field.  We’ll remember how He cared for our children a midst the chaos."